Friday, May 06, 2005

Naked Truth

W/we have got a new car so now W/we are spending lot more time moving around and visiting friends which is good in its own way. Mistress is planning a friend's surprise birthday and a trip to Island in the coming weeks so it is keeping Her on Her toes too. Then baseball every wednesday. A lot is going on. I had been working on the website but I am still not happy with what i have got there. It can be much better but i am testing. Just brainstorming ideas. We are getting feedback from people and people like Her blogs the most. I will be adding Her Art, some of which is just beautiful. Mistress started drawing just for fun years ago but I find it interesting that most of the pictures She selected to draw seem pretty much close to femdom. Strong Women. Warrior Amazons. Sexy and enticing. This is what I see it revolving around which shows my Mistress's interest in lifestyle long before when She was not actually into it.
The week had gone well. Mistress had Her ups and downs and so did I but W.we managed it well. A night ago I stayed on computer late. Browsed and broke one of Her rule. I am chaste and She expects that to be followed strictly. It affects my service to Her, my moods and my training. I was worried and afraid to confess that I will upset her and esp. in the middle of the night which is the worst time. Slipping into bed quitely did not help much. Mistress could tell something was wrong as W/we talked and She was really pissed off when I dragged the truth that I had failed Her and later confessed it. Yes, worst comes to worst and Mistress was totally devastated. It made me hurt more. None seem to work but Mistress calmed down and I was told how this would be dealt with. It is on my punishment list. She has not decided yet how i will be punished and I have not mentioned anything about it too. I will be punished not for failing Her but lying to Her. I might be put into chastity device too. Mistress thinks it will help especially when I am not learning the self control myself (like many hubbies). At the same time, there is my fantasy around it. She being my keyholder. All pleasures coming through Her as She takes more firm steps to keep take things in Her control. While some view it that it can be worst that can happen to a man. Not to me though if it can help me with my submission to Her and self control. I am still not sure and choice is Hers in the end always but I hope I wont forget my lesson and other men in my lifestyle too.As they say, "the naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie."