Sunday, May 01, 2005

Boywife Training

Goddess dyed Her hair to dark cooper brown and i helped Her. I think She expects me to make it one of my duty that i help Her dye Her hair. She looks beautiful and it feels wonderful that I helped Her with this look. Goddess felt a bit tired this evening so i made Her coffee. Many slaves/subs all around the world are always trying to contact Her, some send messages, some emails and some comment directly that spirit is such a lucky slave to be owned and kept by such a Goddess. Yes i am and i am blessed by my Goddess everyday.
I have been feeling a bit down lately but Goddess took me for a walk. She takes care of me. When i am down, She is kind with me and i am told i am Her most precious pet. She does what She says and i feel it.
Sometimes i am a brat. Which has changed in last few days. Whinning .. is what i need to work on.
Goddess want to train me as Her boywife. i am officially boywife now. She got me high heels shoes. i am asked to keep my nails filed. She expects me to look good. Goddess thinks i have such sexy legs. i might have to shave them for Her later. i have started to love it too. i do my chores in my shoes. They are hard to walk in but they look sexy. i can feel my chest thurst out as i walk, back arches and your bum sticks out. Its amazing the way high heels work. i have been very shy. i had been cross dressing but i have never been to this level. It took me sometime to get comfortable in my new clothes but deep inside i like it and Goddess knows i do. Like She said "spirit I am helping you to be what you are deep inside" If i look at it this way that i am able to experience both my boy and girl sides with my Goddess, it makes it much easier. Which is pretty true. She told me that She may want me to paint my toes later. I would do that for Her but i am of course reluctant. Also, from now on She might fuck me with my high heels on. It is enough to make every slave just drool for this Goddess. There are million mens who think of that and want that. This is food for an imaginative slave who likes to play with Goddess like mine. I may have to dress for Her, flirt with Her, beg Her to take me, use me or let me lick Her... She would tease me. Still in the end it is Her choice. If i wont please Her ... i might loose Her attention or i might be tormented more and kept aroused. I love the way She surprises me. I may be Her slut in Her bedroom or Her boywife in Her house, prancing around the house, learning to walk like Her girly but i am pretty much man out the house, when i am walking beside Her She is in the heels and i know how to keep slow and what it feels like to walk in heels, to look good and sexy, She does that for me but at the same time She knows of this secret only. I love that. Who knows where else She takes me, slowly, with Her love, Her loving lead while i love the experiences and the O/our journey in Femdom.