Friday, March 11, 2005

Her Birthday boy

Today is my birthday and i got a day off at home .. yay!!!
Mistress was the first one to wish me on my birthday when i woke up in Her arms. She likes to snuggle and hold me in the morning and it makes me incredibly happy too. In turn, making it harder for both of U/us to leave the bed. My Mistress got me a beautiful card and there is more to come as W/we are going out and then She asked me to "protect my bum" .. lol and i turned 23 so i kindof know whats coming. Her crop has been sitting idle for sometime and it might need some kisses. mmmm it shivers me and tingles my whole being that i will get a lot of Her special attention. Perhaps She may choose to play with me if She is in a mood. I have been kept denied and horny for sometime so i may get rewarded with a cum too ... i am not sure cuz i had been quiet a bad boy in last few days.
She had been kind and linient after O/our wedding so my lazy, brat and careless was more aparent. Mistress took care of it well. She warned me few times. i did not do well on my own so i was diciplined and put back to my place. Some hard and fast rules were set. I was put back to my place where i belong in Her loving but strict care as i go through my training. My Mistress is happy and that makes me feel just wonderful. She is very pleased with my service in the morning when i help Her get ready and leave for work. I am in bed at times and i mostly know when and how to behave. I am working on anticipating Her needs and wants. Just little everyday things and Her rule that before leaving any room i should ask if She would like anything or would need any help. It helps me to show my respect for Her and focus on my submission to Her.
I must admit that i have learned to feel Her dominance and control through Her voice, voice commands,gestures and looks. "My boy","birthday boy","spirit come to me", "spirit..." all these have deep effect on me which is strange for me myself.
i am trying to learn Her gestures, Her movements and to read Her moves. My Mistress has beautiful eyes and they can say a lot. If She is happy, upset or if She wants me at Her feet. Little things like lowering myself(unless directed otherwise) when She kisses me as i am tall so that She has easy access to my lips and body and it does not hurt Her neck are becoming a habit. If i wont She would tug on my collar to put Her focus on what She wants me to learn and remember.
All this put me in my deep submissive place and i simply respond in the way asked or needed and learn to anticipate. Other things like offering to go for walks as She likes them, to massage and bath Her feet, not touching my peepee, my respose to Her touch and putting more attention to house chores, controlled computer use show that my Mistress has helped me a lot and She is just a wonderful trainer. I love and worship Her more and perhaps i should ask Her to put me from a submissive to Her personal slave/consort. 23rd is coming soon so i was thinking if i should ask my Mistress to have O/our D/s ceremony/ritual on that day and perhaps my status can be changed on that day too if Mistress thinks i am pleasing enough to move from being Her submissive to slave.
Happy birthday spirit. Good luck on Your life and service to Your beautiful Goddess .