Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Miss You

i missing Her bad. It has been 2 hours since i have been up and have been thinking of Her constantly. Not to mention that i played with my pee-pee but not as bad as before. I tried hard to put focus on O/other things, doing maths and stuff and on the fact that it is Her desire to have control on my thing when i can. I have to agree that i am Her very horny boy (as She says) i must admit that i love this orgasm denial thing too and that i am doing that for Her. Such thoughts always help me to keep my hands to myself or on the keyboard like right now. So it is working.
I recieved Her long email today, written with so much care and love that i could feel white reading it. The care She puts in moulding me and mentoring me is just amazing and that is one of great qualities of wonderful Mistress. I am not just Her playtoy but a person in Her life She cherishes, loves and owns like percious. It is a great feeling and it takes much of my worries away when a lot is going on with my life and career and i am going through huge changes. I appreciate Her presence in such times and i am happy that She is there to keep and eye on me and show me the way that leads to reality of my dreams.
Recently, W/we shared O/our limits and W/we are talking and exploring them more until She will set them finally. I am awaiting Her decision. I have also noticed that Mistress is taking Her position in O/our relationship quiet well now though i have been a bit brat last few days because of Her leniency with me.
Do i really take advantage of Her love ? In last few days. Yes ! and i forgot my place and i suffered later by feeling aweful for change of tone in my voice for speaking Her, being careless and unattentive. Her disappointment was much of punishment but i will be diciplined later for it as told.
There are number of things I am working on and i need to work. She pointed that out and She trusts me that i can. I wish to move back with Her as soon as possible so that i do not loose my focus of what is expected. Being away from Her is badly affecting my training.
I am missing Her bad right now. Again and i do think of Her many times a day. I could have been in Her arms to snuggle Her tight right now and hide in Her warmth. Her necklace is around me at all times to remind me of my submission to Her and my place. There is nothing like being Owned by a beautiful and loving Dominant Woman at heart. Thats my Goddess and i am a lucky one.