Lil Session

i have sometime before i am expected to bed so i should write my journal. Today was a really busy day. i am happy that all is well with my job. I was upset for no reason yesterday. Mistress tried to calm me. Later in the evening, i hurried home with happiness to see Her. Mistress had dinner ready. She had already eaten so i had my part and it was nice .. Mistress had asked me in the morning that She would like to meet anyother sub She had been talking for sometime. A friend of Hers but She would like me to be there beside Her as Her r/t subbie. As i was quiet stressed already about the job, i did not say much so later in the eve Mistress mentioned it again. I do have the choice that is why She always asks me what i think though the decision is Hers in the end. i was reluctant to see the other sub. i did not trust him. i thought he is still interested in Mistress. She would own him but She may try to push Her or perhaps try to push Her to train him or find him a training Mistress. Knowing U/us realtime would open up bunch of other possibilities for him as i am still not sure what his real intentions are. Perhaps i am being judgemental. My Mistress could feel it that i was not very excited to meet this boy. If it was a couple too, like a Mistress and sub, then it makes sense that they want to get together, know U/us as they are living the same lifestyle too but him pushing my Mistress to see her while MISTRESS suggested that i should be around but not him ... seems fishy.
I remember She tapped Her knee when i was done with eating. i put back the stuff in the kichen and knelt at Her feet where my place is. i was so tired and She held me and it felt like haven. i love Her so much for that. She nurtures me like i am most precious to Her.She kept calling me 'spirit' which has a deep effect on me. It is the name given to Her by me and it takes me deeper into my submission to Her. I could feel it again. i was probed more about my feelings about the other sub seeing U/us. i admit that i was unable to explain.
And then just surprisingly Her finger was curled in my collar ring and Mistress pulled me and kissed me like a strong willed Woman would. i was told that i should get ready for Her special attention and birthday bumps. oooowww ... i almost whinned and protested but it was already said .. i knew it wont be a good idea .. i tried to kiss Her but i was not allowed. Just in an instant i was unable to touch my wife without Her permission. i was being put to my place.
I have learned to keep up with Her pace when She walks and i am on my knees. Mistress has done it for some time and then Her "on the bed, naked,in your training position"was enough to make my heart bumping my chest. i did not know what was coming next. My Mistress is always dressed or wearing something when i am being trained, punished or used. She wore a green silk nightey while i was naked on my knees awaiting what ever She chooses to do with my body and spirit.
I learnt i had been bad and Mistress wants to make sure i know my place. i was asked who i am to Her, why do i love Her, is anyone else be Her slave yet? It was hard to think and find words while Her crop kissed my skin to pull the correct answers out, deep from my slave belly. i was told that She felt i have forgotten my place for last few days. My skin burned. I was far from safeword but i was struggling and learning. I wondered how my bottom looked to Her but the pain was sinking deep as i was told to get ready to take my birthday smacks.
I could hear my groans. I was asked to count and 2 out of 3 times i was wrong. i wondered if i was hit extra for that because i am not good at counting while being cropped esp. after 15 on one cheek .. so yes i realized the crop still works awesome for a punishment. She has become so good with Her blows, crop and flogger that it hurts when She wants it too so i wonder if i will be able to win Her crop so that it does not stay a tool to administer punishments too.
While writing this i can feel the burning sensations on my bottom and remember Her words when i was not able to touch Her and She was teasing me and playing with the cock She owns. i am still need training when my Goddess takes me. She feels so good that i beg to cum. Today it was like She sucked the energy out of me ... slowly ... i could feel Her pussy sucking on my juices. She was not very pleased as She wanted to talk more, use me more .. Mistress thinks i can do that and i will. i need to submit to Her. Focus on Her and Her pleasure only, do math as She says ... something .. perhaps feel like Her toy ... i want to do it so bad .. its the last thing as She thinks i am perfect in all other ways but i need more training. She is too sexy to put thoughts somewhere else, She feels good .. lol ... i love Her so much
It was a small session but a remainder that She is my Owner and i am Her slave. She chooses and i obey. I am precious to Her then anything else so She would choose the best for me, for U/us. i trust Her judgement and Her decisions. Unsubordinate and bratty behaviour and questioning Her authority is displeasing to Her. Touching Her, kissing Her, talking with Her freely and many others are previliges She allow as You learn their importance once they are taken away from You. Thats what i learned today. I am so happy She is in my life to be my lover, my Mistress and my Goddess gardian Angel.
With loves and prayers for Her,
{spirit}MsKika