Monday, February 21, 2005

this weekend

Its late and almost two. Mistress just came and expects me in bed with Her. i messed around and wasted my time on computer mostly. i should have my tasks listed and i should know what i want to accomplish in the time i can spend of computer. She allows me to use the computer freely but i need to be careful.
This weekend has been busy too but fun as usual. i spent it with Mistress and friends. We went to white rock beach on saturday. Today it was garets birthday. Mistress took me there and it was a great time spent with Her. W/we watched a movie before we got home.
On saturday, Mistress used me. i was asked to be nacked and wait for Her in the room while i could take my drink. i was very much drunk. Mistress cuffed me and played with me while i enjoyed my helplessness in Her loving control. At times she was rough with me which made more submissive and made me wanted Her more. i was teased at the same time which made it more interesting. i like to cum after my Mistress but she allowed my before Herself this time. Sex means Her oral worship. If i am lucky, She allows me inside Her. i am so used to licking Her and trained to enjoy it that i can cum watching or making Her cum. It is good that it helps me to focus on Her pleasure and teaches me self control. At the same time it keeps me submissive to Her. The element of surprise makes our fun time more interesting when She chooses to play with me. Mistress is always in control. i do test Her or bug Her at times but i know when i can and when i dont mostly esp. during our plays. i rarely remember a time when i was out of my place. i am starting to like Her crop so i wonder if it is really for punishments ... evil grins ..
i am reading celestine philosophy these days and finding it interesting. i am able to apply it to many events in my life and i hope it works. life is good and i am happy with my Mistress.
Later in the evening i did dishes. It is good that she did not have to tell me to do them. i am sure it pleases Her more as it satisfies me.
Sometimes i feel like i start to forget my place. sometimes its only for fun as W/we like to laugh but i noticed that perhaps i disrespected Her unintentionally. i need to know at such times so that i am careful. Mistress loves me and i hope i am not taking advantage of it. i submit to Her with all my love. i wish U/us a wonderful and happy weak and i hope the big event that is comign soon, goes well :))