i am allowed on computer for a while as She went to sleep. Mistress is sore again and it is painful to see Her hurting and restless but She is taking good care of Herself and i am helping Her too so i am sure She will fine soon. It will take time and doctors said it will take 6 weeks for Her bruises to heal. i really really hope soon because i want my Mistress to be at Her best and without pain... me myself, my prayers and well wishes are with Her.

It was interesting that yesterday Mistress went to love shops and looked at stuff and then W/we discussed it. It is a blessing of its own that i am letting go of my shyness and getting more and more open to Her of my needs and what i like. Credit goes to Her that She has been quiet open about it and with time She made me feel so comfortable. i can talk about anything while She listens, accepts and chooses if its good for me and this is what She wants too. i am very much comfortable with the idea that final choice is Hers and She chooses the best as i trust Her. As far as play goes .. i am enjoying the role reversal very much and i am being put into it more ... perhaps .. i think so ... lol ... Thinking of Her wearing the strapon and being a reciever makes me turn on now which is very different than before. Its amazing .. lol .. i am surely willing to try more stuff. She talked of crops today ... ouch ... my punishment is still due and list is long .. i wonder if it would be easy to kneel on my heels easy as i am told it will hurt cuz its punishment and i understand that ... crops, whips, bondage .. they arouse me so for a moment i look forward to it and then at other ... ouch its gona hurt .. She knows well when and how to make it painful than erotic. Mistress is quiet skillful with whip now. From last session which was erotic of course, i was allowed an orgasm with anal training .. mmm which was incredible: the level of length and width i can take now ... and after the session i was told that She does not want me to move but accept it when She asks me to be in whipping/useage position..thats very helpful and i find it very easy to know what She expects . I hope that Mistress is getting comfortable with it too. i have also learned to not to whine .. lol ... it is not a pleasing trait in a submissive at all .. esp. Her love slave and Her consort. oh i read that term somewhere .. its not bad .. 'consort'.... Goddesses had them and my Lady no less than my Goddess.

Thats a bit of my rambling in the middle of the night and i should be in the bed now before She wakes up or that is going to be on my list or i may loose the priviledge of using computer at nights. I am happy W/we are still doing great ... i love my Mistress bunches and i know She loves me too ... with prayers for Her good health and safety.

{spirit}Kika

Some websites i would like to read and perhaps suggest to my Mistress too ... :
http://www.bestslavetraining.com/TrainingTech.htm
http://www.domsubfriends.com/cgi-local/wwwdir/db.cgi?db=res&uid=default&category=SUBMISSIVE+MALE&view_records=View+Records
http://www.dsguide.net/index.asp

~takes the robe off and slips in Her bed, melting in Her warmth~