Saturday, January 22, 2005

Saturday Eve

I am just back from my Mistress's place. I am glad that i left Her happy and smiling sweetly the way She does. After noon and all eve W/we spent some great time together. I did not forget to kneel as i entered Her place and Her collar was put around my neck. After a week it was such a great feeling when my Mistress snuggled me close like Her arms around me in Her warmth like Her collar around my neck. I always love those moments. It is like She charges me up and i can feel the connection. Mistress told me that Her collar is symbol of Her love and commitment for each other and i offered my thanks to Her. Later, after feeding me I was allowed time at Her feet while She spent time online. W/we had a coffee together, browsed the interest, talked about websites, people, discussed things like what She thinks about Female Supremacists and chatted with a sub who wants my Mistress bad ... ~evil smirk~lol ...poor boy but he is far from that because She is concentrating on my training and keeping me only. wooo hooo
I was already horny by being under Her sexy feet while kneeling at Her side. Touching, kissing and playing with Her legs and belly: as far as my lips could reach and Mistress showed me some new D/s movies She downloaded from bearshare...mmmmm...She offered me Her hand most lovingly while i followed Her to Her bedroom and i was pushed on Her bed. I knew She is the mood of using me. I was ordered to get naked and wait for Her. Today was my Judgement day. ~bites his lips~ For a moment i thought perhaps She is just joking but Her tone was enough to tell that She is not. Mistress left while i was hurried to pull out of my clothes. I thought of the long list She had kept for sometime for all my transgressions that need Her special attention to dicipline me. Today was the day and I knelt nacked on Her bed awaiting Her. Mistress entered after a moment with something in hand that i could not see as She was holing it behind Her back. She said, "Do You know the punishment position I trained You with?" i could feel the shivers go through my spine. I answered quickly "Yes Mistress" and my body was already half in the position. I knelt mindlessly at the wrong side of the bed and later realized that She wants my bum facing Her which was i trouble now for sure. My head pressed to Her soft pillow, back arched to keep my ass up as much as possible, i could feel my heart throbbing in my chest. Mistress explained why and how I was being punished for. I had been late three times and i kept Her waiting. Mistress hates to wait especially from me, Her sub who is so special to Her. I have worked on it and i think i can do much better now but Mistress felt that such offence needed to be taken care of. Mistress chose three blows on each cheek when i knelt helplessly at Her command. Mistress rubbed my bum with Her gentle touch making the skin of my bottom ready to be punished. I could hear my moans. She allows me to make sounds and speak freely or i would be gagged if She would prefer me to be silent. It is good because under such attention by Her, i do not think so i would be able to control my whimpers and moans. Then a wooden paddle rubbed on my bottom and i knew it was coming. It felt good but not for long when it kissed my skin with sound. I felt the pain rushing through my spine as i felt it for the first time. I was painful and then i felt it again rubbing gently and softly on my skin making it ready to take more .. i do not remember what cheek, it would have been hard for me to count. i groaned when Mistress hit me with the paddle six times and hard .. i could feel it. First few times it felt good but more i was paddled with it i could feel my skin burning. I thanked in my heart that they were only six in total or after that it would have been a hard punishment. Mistress told me to break the position later and i crawled and hugged Her tight. For a moment, i forgot what i was being punished, my bum was burning and Mistress told me it is very red. I saw a new wooden paddle for the first time. aaaoooouch ... one of Her bamboo's buddy .. She told me, laughing, that She should name it a punishment paddle... ~grins~ That was only for me being late ... and She has tons of ideas to take care of rest of the punishments so it seems like only the beginning. As She shared, they were all mix of psycological, painful, humiliating and physical punishments. I liked the some of it this punishment. She thinks i have become a pain slut too ... lol ... as She had been training me with Her crop I can take a much more pain that i could took before. Damn ... its a long list for all the stuff i had been doing for last few months and i am not gona enjoy it ... thats the point of punishment but i thank Her that She is doing me only to mould me to perfection, the way She likes me and sees me as Her loving slave. Because She cares and loves me and i thanked Her for Her attention. I learned to be punctual already. She helped me to realize that sometimes i make unrealistic promises because i want to please Her so bad. I learned to always be at the place where She expects me 15 minutes early. It helped and i am sure it will in the future. My burning skin reminded me of the times i made Her wait so today's punishment re-registered the idea. I took it like a man for displeasing my lady and it is crossed off the list.
Later while being snuggled Mistress offered me that there can be ways to take multiple things off my list. Like to sleep at the foot of Her bed chained for the whole night, bound to the corner, or chained in the corner of made to kneel and allowed to leave the room only for the pee breaks or even just allowing You use the bucket ... ooo .. i could feel my control taken away and this is usually when i start resisting. She takes my whinning quiet seriously so i think many times before saying no or make excuses but instead i told Her that i can hide the list ... lol ... i was topping from bottom and Mistress checked me right there...lol.. it is amazing how She is aware now when i would start to find ways to not let go of control and resist my submission unintentionally especially when it is something i want avoid. This is especially true in the case of punishments. She gave me the choices to choose my punishment so i have still some room to save my butt ... lol ...but i was quiet impressed by Her ideas that would help learn my lessons well. ~grins~ Mistress is spending too much time on internet and reading.
W/we played later ... mmm She queened me and i learned to suck and lick Her while She had Her clit right on my face. It is quiet uncomfortable position but with practice and communication i can learn to do better. i can explore my vulnerability and helpness in the safe hands of my Owner in the position and She enjoys Her place there too. I would really like to Her cum while She queens me one day. I am sure its not far :))))))
Later W/we watched catwoman .. ~swish~ yup .. thats how my Lady does it with Her whip too ... mmm .. i liked the movie.The outfit was fabulous. Animation was good and Helly Berry did a very good job. So did, one of the relative of our beloved jazzy. i call my Mistress sometimes a Panther Girl. Yes! it has to do a bit with Gor because if She would have been at Gor. She would have been a panther for sure and i would submit to Her only with honor and pride.
Today had been a wonderful day. I hope, wish and pray that there are many more such days to come. i love my Mistress deeply and i submit to Her with all my heart. I learn and feel to do more everyday. Thanks Mistress for owning me.

Yours,
{spirit}Kika