Midnight Ramblings

I am up late at night. I am usually sleeping at this time but i cant tonight. My Lady wont be pleased with it as it might affect my health and my serve to Her too so that is why i am here to spend some time on my deserted journal. At least it is something productive (which might save my butt actually .. i hope its a nice try) I have Her thoughts everywhere in my head. I want Her more than i wanted yesterday. Things are going at a very good pace. I am happy about it but at time same time i feel scared that i might not hurt Her. I have earned Her faith and trust in Her while i feel the honor of being at Her service. I respect Her more everyday for the kind of person She is. Feelings and emotions are strong but more care needs to taken when O/our hearts are so close. I do serve Her with honor and She is the kind of Woman i always dreamed of worshipping. She is strong yet sensitive, confident of Her choices and true to Her heart and words. She is surely an inspiration and someone who can lead me perhaps for the rest of O/our lives too. While She is fun and most open minded Woman i have ever met. She is my lady and no wonder I feel lucky of being Her boy, lover and sub for submitting to Her.
Today, I dared to share my insecurities with Her at last and She listened, understood & even offered help like no one else. That means a lot to me. It increases my respect for Her. I do not know where O/our future will take U/us but these memories of every moment W/we spent together will lighten O/our days always.
I am worried though. She did not sent me any offline messages. It is not that I expect Her to do that. It is not my place but my Mistress is kind enough to keep me informed that She is there and Her words mean a lot to me. I cant wait until its morning and i could be at Her place again as there is a lot to tell Her :) It will please Her so much i am sure. I really really hope and wish She is in a good mood and She may bless me with Her beautiful smiles. & if She is not, may i have the strength to make Her smile and i know i can do that ... that is why She chose me to be Her sub and take care of Her.

With prayers of happiness and prosperity of my Goddess and the one who worships Her
{spirit}Kika